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Spanking has been an intimate part of my relationship with my Master since the beginning. One of our first play experiences was a spanking. Through receiving this spanking I never thought I'd be able to admit that I benefited from it but I did and continue to do so every time he takes his hand or paddle to my bare bottom.
One of the main purposes that my Master chooses spanking is because of the intimate contact of hand with flesh and I have to agree that I feel closer to him in that moment than I do with a flogging or other impact or pain play. The connection between us as Dominant and submissive is very unique, given the amount of trust and respect between us, but nothing can bind us closer than an intimate act like spanking. Love pats take on a different meaning when spanking is involved.
During play, the connection that grows from his spanking me fills me with his love and affection. He likes to tell me how he loves how my ass looks or that it bounces and jiggles just right. I feel utterly and completely in love with him during an erotic spanking. I'm able to mentally give myself to him and push myself to heights that no other play can do. I release myself to his control. I also get quite turned on by the pain. I am a masochist and because of this, the right spanking can bring me to the brink of orgasm, floating in space or quite deep in the moment. He is the director of my pain and I am just a puppet.
Another form of our play is when he uses spanking to exert his control over me and expects me to submit without question. Usually these sessions are edgier and more intense. Pleasure is not the goal, at least not as in erotic spanking. Warm up is generally less and my head space is more along the lines of peace and and obedience. My mind takes every painful impact into itself and absorbs it. My desire during this type of scene is to challenge myself to take what he wants to give, to please him by pushing my limits. I gain a lot of self-pride when I'm able to push myself that much further and take what he wants to subject me to.
Play can also be therapeutic. If I need to release some emotions; be they anger, or stress or even happiness, I know that I can ask my Master for a spanking to let it out. This form of spanking can take on different feelings but it generally ends with me crying, trembling and emotionally sapped. The spanking itself isn't what is happening, it is the release of everything inside me. His hand on my flesh is just the catalyst for that release. His spanking is giving me permission to let go and not hold on. It's frees my mind and opens my spirit to whatever I need to feel. He can give me exactly what I need. All I need to do is ask for it.
Finally, for masochists a spanking can be completely sexual. I categorized this separate from an erotic spanking for a reason. A sexual spanking for me, usually includes or leads up to sexual intercourse of some kind. The spanking turns me on and very horny. Pain and sex mixed together is a grand combination. Emotionally this is more intimate than just sex. It's lusty and fulfilling but it's just a small part to play in a spanking repertoire.
Every time a spanking is on the table, there are different emotions that can come out of it. Accepting that these feelings are beneficial to my life and experience as a submissive has brought me closer to my Master and deeper into the role of submissive. Spanking will always be an integral part of our relationship because it can feed very special parts of our souls; revitalization and love for each other in each and every painful, playful or affectionate love pat.
luna has been in the BDSM lifestyle for over 5 years. luna authors a personal blog titled BDSM is Love. Her newest endeavor is a submissive mentorship and self-help website called The Submissive Guide where she hopes to offer training courses and articles for novice submissives on the mindset and growth and learning opportunities of a submissive. |
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